Your Name is Victory… Right?

All praise will rise to Christ our King.

I went to bed last night in an attempt to get a good night’s sleep and wake up to find out who our next president would be. After all, spending all night watching the red and blue map of the United States seemed pretty stressful, and I’m all about minimizing stress these days.

About every few hours, I woke up, checked the time, then went back to bed, telling myself “not yet.” Finally, about fifteen minutes before my 5 am alarm, I woke up at 4:45 am and decided it was time to check the results of the election…

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You’ve got to be kidding me.

This must be a dream.

There is no way Donald Trump won. How?!

Let me check a few other sites. Maybe CNN is punking me.

Wow. Donald Trump…

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As I slowly got ready for the gym, I was in shock, as I’m sure many of you are. There were very few people, as I’m sure many people stayed up late watching the results and hoping it was all a dream. Or they’re crying in their cornflakes. Probably both.

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New York Times – you had ONE job!

I feel a lot of things, and they are all so conflicting. I am genuinely confused how this happened. How did Trump win nearly half the popular vote just as Hillary did? Clearly, there is a portion of the population that truly believes he will turn things around. I am sad that people in old factory/industrial areas are hurting – how fed up they are and how unheard they have felt for so many years. I am ticked off by the inappropriate, racist, sexist comments that have been made public and acted as a platform to win voters. I am discouraged that this is not over. I am worried that our country is so divided.

Yet, despite all of this, I see many Bible verses and claims that Jesus ultimately sits on the throne, which I believe to be true, but how do I reconcile all of my feelings, especially as a believer? Am I allowed to feel discouraged, sad, and angry? Or am I supposed to be peppy, joyful, and hopeful?

Honestly, I’m having trouble fixing my eyes on Jesus and reminding myself that He is Lord, when I feel so numb inside. I didn’t expect to have such strong feelings about this election, but I think that’s because I never truly thought that this could actually become a reality. And here we are. This is not a dream.

So what do we do? My mind says to hope and dream, to not be weighed down by man (even if he is the president), and to place my hope in Jesus Christ. Yet, my heart is raw, my soul is tired, and my strength is weary.

Today, I will let my feelings be my feelings. I will curl up with my favorite book, sit with my housemates, and cook a delicious meal. But tomorrow (or hopefully soon thereafter) I hope to replace my feelings with what I know to be true.

First of all, then, I urge that entreaties and prayers, petitions and thanksgivings, be made on behalf of all men, for kings and all who are in authority, so that we may lead a tranquil and quiet life in all godliness and dignity. This is good and acceptable in the sight of God our Savior, who desires all men to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth.” -1 Tim. 2:1-4

“Please never stop believing that fighting for what’s right is worth it… Never doubt that you are valuable and powerful and deserving of every chance to pursue and achieve your own dreams.” – HRC

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